First Day

I always find it interesting how the first of the year or the first of the month or the first of the week seems to be the only time I can or want to or plan to start something.  Every single day is a first, yet the procrastinator or the control freak in me has to set the date for the first of sometime.  This typically leads me into putting off the things that I want to get started.  Which is contrary to my ability to start things and not finish them.
So where I am going with this is today is the first day of the second half of 2016. Reflecting back, I have made some strides and I have also taken some steps back.  I have made some progress in stepping outside of the gerbil cage, however I have run right back into the comfort and confines of it. The phrase " You can't keep doing the same things and expect to get a different result" is constantly in the forefront of my mind.   I feel like at some point in  my life I would be at the point of self- acceptance, however there are so many things that I feel like I need to change or improve about myself.
I mostly feel overwhelmed at the many things I want to do to the point of being frozen and doing nothing at all to get there. If I start and don't complete or stop doing something, I feel like I need to start over.  This really is getting me nowhere, in fact the longer I remain in this state the further behind I get.  I wish I had the magic formula to get me to where I think I want or need to be or at least the formula to be good with where I am today.
So as I begin the first day of the second half of 2016, I am going to do my best to look at each day as the first that it is.  Each day doesn't necessarily have to be a day to start over, however it can be an opportunity to get back on track if I happen to fall off the previous day. I don't necessarily need to start things over, I just need to get them back on track.  Today is the start of a better more evolved me. Today I put one foot in front of the other and do my best to stay on the track I am building for my life.  I may step off, but I can always get back on and keep going.  And those things that don't build my track in a direction that doesn't suit me, I can change that direction!!!