When I say stand still, I think of 2 things. The point of not knowing what to do so you do nothing and come to a stand still and the act of actually being still. I'm experiencing both. I am having some work related issues that I just don't really know what to do, so I am at a stand still. It's beginning to wear on me so increases my desire to be still. To become centered so that I can figure out a solution. It seems like so many facets of my life are in a constant state of for a lack of a better term "a hot mess". I desire to be calm, focused, centered and most of all relaxed. The uptight lifestyle that I have been leading is really starting to take its toll on my body and mind.
To say that I am uncomfortable in my own skin is an understatement. I am uncomfortable with most aspects of my life. Physical, mental, emotional, work. I know life isn't perfect and isn't meant to be, but at some point shouldn't it just be not so hard? Not that I have a hard life by any stretch of the imagination, but it seems that I am in a constant state of struggle and lacking acceptance of myself and my circumstances. I have made huge strides over the last year, but have reached that point of stand still, not really knowing what I need to do now.
I feel like it's time for a fresh perspective, a new point of view. Time to really figure out who I am, what I want and what I need to reach a state of acceptance in my life.
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